confused (a stream of consciousness quickie)

just got down from the mountains. again. just returned to cell phone signal and contact with civilization.

i made grown men cry, including the st. peter barangay captain and some of his officials. many other women cried, including myself. it is the end of our support in our community there. and leaving is never easy. so many tears shed in three days. sigh. but there is something to be optimistic about. and i got to bring home two native bags, one native banig, one beaded necklace and two placemats. i might not have to buy anything from the stalls anymore. hehehe!

the moment we hit an area with a signal, i texted people about work. that's new. but it will be a busy month i think. so much to do.

got a message that there's another airfare sale going on. it's so hard to organize logistics this time. travel from davao is always difficult and expensive. grr. hopefully i can find a way. dunno how my boy is doing things on his end right now.

i hate having to stay over somebody else's house. i'd rather stay in a hotel and go about my life without being fussed about. this is not the kaamulan i imagined so far. hopefully things get better tomorrow and dove surprises me by showing up.

talked to my mom, but she refuses to say more. thus i'm not entirely sure if i can really plan many travels this year because there are more important things in life than adventure.

suddenly, i feel tired. and sad.

and this post hardly made sense.