i can't believe i am in rush again. it has been quite a while since i have written an entry that is well thought off. most of the time, everything is just put down spontaneously and then published. after reading it over, there is always the feeling that i could have said it better. but a part of me says "that's the only thing you can do with you time. live with it."
and i do. i have been living with "it" for a long time. so many things that i can not control, so many things i have no hold over, so many things i'm stuck with and have constant fear of.
nakakapagod.
presently, it's not even just mental and emotional tiredness. i am physically tired from the training we are having. it's just the second day. four more days to go. plus a trip to camiguin with friends i haven't seen for quite a while. even getting excited is tiring. but i do want to go. speaking in bisaya, or at least trying hard to makes it all the worse. lacking sleep is not helping either.
everything is a blur. like a constant tear in my eye that refuses to fall.
kapoy.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
kapoy, bai!
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i feel your kapoy. hope you get to rest soon. take care :)
take time to rest, read a page or two from a book or even hum while doing a something.
inhale or exhale din hehehe
ingats!
basin makatabang, anj, ang pag-meditate. uhm, bisan ug 10 minutes lang a day. before you start your day. better kung kung wa'y sulod imo tiyan (food/liquid) unya after 30 minutes nimo sudlan (kaon) ug something. pwede mu-inom ug tubig pero kanang dili sa bugnaw. this really helps when i'm OA kakapoy.
or let that tear fall...:)
*hugs*
hanagirl, ayeza and babypink: thanks for the tips. i think i do need to learn to medidate. masyado kasi akong praning sa katahimikan. hehehe!
i'm a little better since i'm not facilitating the training anymore. :)
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